Staring out the front entrance of the Aadithya Adhikari Hospital in Gokulam waiting for my x-rays I began to realize that the end of this trip to Mysore was approaching. That made me sad. Each year I come here with so much gratitude in my heart for the opportunity to spend time in India - and somehow each trip flies by so fast I don't know If stopped long enough each day to truly appreciate any of it. I guess I'm just wishing I could relish the days more...Each one is so special and I find myself so busy with life sometimes that the days pass by before I've had the time to realize they have even begun.
But then it suddenly occurred to me that each day is filled to the brim with the true beatings of my heart - I am not just dreaming but living my dreams. So is it ok then that sometimes living your dreams awake means some moments will pass too quickly to grab with both hands and savor like a cup of warm ginger lemon tea on a cold rainy day?
Hmmmm...I am simply at that point in my journey where I must begin preparing for my next destination. That means this stop will soon be a memory...So it calls for a bit of recollection over the last two months. The biggest challenge for me is always finding the balance within to enjoy the rest of this journey while at the same time preparing for the next. Curious to see how well I accomplish that task this year.
Funny thing our yoga practice...You see I woke up this morning feeling a bit heavy, but in a place of no thought. When I first began my practice I could sense it was gonna be a very rough led second series today. About mid-way through though I found that my body no longer felt heavy, that feeling was replaced with immense feelings of strength in the body and will. The rest of my practice was rock solid. When I laid down in Shavasana I literally sank into the earth beneath me. I felt as though I had been cleansed from the inside out. I enjoyed a restful corpse pose and found it was all I could do to get myself up off the floor after ten minutes of rest. I left the shala feeling exhausted though - the ebb and flow of this mornings practice was extremely telling of how my day has gone - both mentally and physically. I don't ever try to understand how your yoga practice mirrors your life - I just acknowledge that it does ;)
I walked home from the hospital with x-rays in hand and silently observed the vibrant life around me. The green, green grass, the dogs barking, cows mooing, wind blowing, sun shining, children running and playing, the colorful saris, people staring, and my wee little heart beating...I may miss the gorgeous little details of some moments, but I'm definitely not missing this one!
“We don't have an eternity to realize our dreams, only the time we are here.” - Susan Taylor
