I’ve just finished a delicious breakfast at home…Practice was lovely today, but no thanks to a good nights sleep – I slept awfully last night. I came home after conference and had a little bit to eat, took a shower, and read for a bit before dozing off pretty early. But my night was endless, I woke up because of the need to go to the bathroom a million times (quite usual), woke b/c Kwang called, woke b/c of mosquitoes, woke b/c I was hot, then cold, then hot, then a tummy ache, then just plain uncomfortable in the bed, etc……it went on and on and on until my alarm sounded at 4am. Ugh, not felt like such poo in quite sometime. I had a brief thought that I should just stay in bed and try to get some decent sleep, but that passed very quickly when I realized in was in mysore and itd be awfully sad to miss a day of practice at the shala when my days of practice at the shala are so limited this year. So I drug myself from the bed and into the bathroom for a morning shower. En route to the shala I called Kwang and spoke to him for a few minutes. It is always nice to talk to him – he had a lazy Sunday as its one of his days off work – he works really hard these days so he really enjoys his off days to do a whole lot of nothing. ;) He loves to tell me he did a lot of work around the bed, and got up at the ass crack of noon ;)
When I arrived at the shala I got a spot not even five minutes later. It was pretty close to the door…I must say I just don’t care what spot I’m given, as long as the people next to me are mindful of ‘space’ – I’m not super paranoid with the pregnancy about people crashing down on me, but with the shala so cram packed of people and mats so close, I just feel a little anxious on my mat when I am next to people who seem oblivious to the fact that they are all over the place – their mat, my mat, their other neighbors mats….it honestly pisses me off! Just being a bit protective of my little man is all! The lady to my left this am had me on the defense for a majority of my practice; but I didn’t let her carelessness destroy my good energy and focused meditation – at least to the best of my ability anyway.
People ask me what I do for asana practice during my pregnancy….well I do the primary series modified…I do triangle twice – no revolved…I do side angle twice – no revolved…I do everything else in a modified fashion as I feel necessary up to Marichyasana D. I leave out Navasana, do only Kurmasana, no Supta, and no Setu Bandasana. I do backbends, but no dropbacks, and do inversions to the best of my ability – some women find them impossible or miserable to do – they are certainly a bit uncomfortable given the extra weight, but I do enjoy them – I just hold most inversions five breaths as opposed to eight b/c more than five becomes really uncomfortable….This has been my practice until today….Saraswati came up to me as I was finishing Marichyasana D. and she asked me again how far along I was… “Six months!” She told me to take Marichyasana B through D out of my practice from here on out – A is ok, but not worth it to do B-D. She also said no Navasana. I asked if Bhujapidasana was ok, she said if I can do, then do…She and Sharath keep their eyes on me pretty constantly when I practice, and they had let me do all of Primary as I’ve been doing it all of last week. But today she took the Marichyasana’s out. Nothing else though…Then once I’d finished backbends and picked my mat up to head to the finishing room, Sharath asked me about Ustrasana and Laghu Vajrasana He told me to add them tomorrow. I said ok, and asked if the pain I have in backbends is due to the baby’s position. He said yes and just to do what I could tomorrow. Kaiden sits very very low, which makes backbends really quite painful for me; some women carry quite high and enjoy backbends tremendously, but I’m not quite so lucky. Don’t mind in the slightest b/c I am sure I’ll be back to deep backbending after Kaiden’s born – and he is worth this discomfort and much much much more. For such an intense practitioner, I’m surprising even myself in how I’m able to back off however I need to in order to enjoy this pregnancy, bring no potential harm to Kaiden due to yoga, and also still continue to enjoy my practice. The first trimester was quite hard, mentally, and physically – but the second has been wonderful and I hope and pray the third is better than the first ;) either way, little man is gonna be here before I know it; and I cannot wait to meet him!
To fill you in on conference….it was awesome! Sharath told us how Guruji made Mysore a famous yoga destination :) He told us Guruji’s story from the day he met Krishnamacharya to the growth of what we know Ashtanga yoga to be today. He also talked at length about the practice, how it is so much more than just asana. How important the Vinyasa is to this system, how dedication is key, how years and years and years of being a student are necessary before thinking one can teach. He feels sad to know so many people want to jump into teaching yoga when they don’t know deeply enough about their own yoga practice. What place can you teach from then? He hit deep into my soul when he said, “without true dedication, it is very difficult to understand this yoga.” If only people could take time and really dedicate themselves to daily yoga practice, allow it to change them, and then they could truly see what all this is about; why this is so special, so amazing. Sitting and listening to Sharath yesterday really brought me peace. I have some wonderful students at home, but I worry daily over how there will be enough income to pay my teachers, to pay the bills, to keep the shala open. And somehow, sitting listening to Sharath yesterday helped me find peace with all of it! I hope and pray things will work out with my school back home, and I have faith they will. But if they didn’t I think the practice would carry me through that too….
Have a beautiful day ahead! Until next time….